Did you know that, if convicted of some crime in the late Roman republic -- usually political, or otherwise something that would be publicly put about -- and one was a 'noble', or even an ordinary citizen with 'means', the honorable thing to do was to ask to go to the private latrine, then stuff this sponge down one's own windpipe, so as to induce irreversible suffocation.
Suicide being the 'honorable' exit path.
What a world.
That world was part of what Jeshua bar Joseph was trying to free us of.
And then Paul was too. At what ended up being fatal cost to himself.