Also: @Lucky, your penchant for coming here to, ostensibly, clamor for greater forum participation, but then just enacting ad hominem attacks on active posters, seems a very unlikely way to increase participation. You elect to say that my posts must be because I have fallen off the wagon. You said that Lookin's plea in 2014 for greater forum civility must have been a symptom of his marijuana-induced personality passivity. And so forth and so on.
Anger management therapy can be, if you sincerely seek it out and participate in it, a very effective therapeutic route out of your pathologies exhibited here over the years.
As someone who has put himself through thousands of hours of various forms of therapy and counseling, including four years of psychotherapy and then four years of on-the-couch psychoanalysis, I cannot recommend those treatment modalities strongly enough.
They can give you great surcease from the demons that very evidently trouble you.