Foolish

I found the boy and he agreed to take the test cos he want to know too. But the result is not conclusive, so he will go for a proper test and will update me. Just to make it clear, I don't blame him, it's just bad luck. He is a very sweet person but he made some bad choices in his personal life.

I guess I'm just paranoid. Usually I'm more careful and since i dun like anal sex, i never tot of getting prep. I got pep just in case. So if he is indeed poz, i took the first dose within 24 hours.

It was not bb sex. I was fingering him and I absentmindedly wank off with the same hand. It had his rectal fluids on it.

Did something foolish yesterday night, now I'm worried. I'm not on prep now so i went to get pep at the red cross this afternoon. But I'm thinking is it possible to get the boy to take a home hiv test for peace of mind. I have the test kits and I'm willing to tip him to take the test.