In my youth I was surrounded by more cock than I could handle. Literally.
Free sex was immediately available, 24/7.
Suddenly, in my mid -thirties, I found I was invisible. In a country where the emphasis is on youth, I was considered too old and no longer desirable. It was a huge blow to my ego. My life, which revolved around sex, had changed.
I still got groped on the train every day, but places like bars and gay cinemas became harder to attract the attention of the guys I was interested in. I started being approached by guys quite a it older than me, and it was a weird experience. The young guys who normally would have been chasing after me were now looking for younger partners.
I belonged to a couple of sex clubs, so getting laid wasn't a problem, but even there I noticed a bit of a change in attitude. In the beginning, I was the first guy they'd approach, whereas now I was second or third in line.
I have no problem paying for sex. I love the concept of having sex with someone I really want to be in bed with. I have certain criteria which must be met - handsome, friendly, Asian, nice bloody, big cock - and these criteria can't always be met by guys you randomly hook up with.