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  1. On 8/30/2013 at 8:53 AM, TotallyOz said:

    In light of all the recent attention with the rulings and with the IRS, I was thinking back to some of my first gay themed books. One of them, Maurice, was just divine to read. I read it when I was a wee lad (Gay section of a book store) and then again in college. I actually did a research paper on the book comparing it to Lady Chatterly's Lover. I called it Love in the Time of Ruins. LOL I got an A on the paper and then sold it to one of those online research paper places. I think I got 50 USD for it! I thought I was rich!

    I have such fond memories of the book and I hope that a new generation falls in love with it.

    Well yes, I'm resurrecting an old thread.  So sue me, everyone!  :give_rose:

     

    I'm a big fan of Maurice, the movie, and I have a copy of the book.  The 30th anniversary bluRay is a worthy spend.  

    But apparently I'm not as big a fan as I thought.  Today I learned that the character Scudder loved both men and women.  I'm just now wrapping my head around E.M. Forster choosing to create a bisexual character.  Perhaps one shouldn't be surprised at all.  I ought to read the book again.  Been years.  I might watch the movie tonight!

  2. On 4/28/2021 at 8:44 AM, caeron said:

     

    The year Crash won was the last time I watched. The whole thing is a little too self-congratulatory to me. Hollywood loves Hollywood, and they are happy to tell you all about it.

    There were members that refused to watch Brokeback Mountain.  In recent times the members seem much more flexible on diversity.


    The year that the wrong winner was announced (Moonlight won) was very telling, that those running the show may have lost focus on the little details that are so important. 

     

  3. My gay friends meet me on Zoom.  I miss joining with them for social events, coffee, dinner, etc.

    So much time gone by.   

    Gay life in LA is like everything else.  One relies on streaming events.  

    I follow an improv group and a comedy troupe that have produced some nice shows on line.

    When I think about the time lost, I grieve a little.

    Everyone looks forward to opening back up. 

     

  4. Not sure what counts as "1st gay experience"

    I was 19 or 20.

    Thought I was in love with my friend.  When you're young one really doesn't know what love is.  But when I think about him now I remember how it was.

    Was before internet porn.  I knew very little about sex.

    I was certainly drawn to him and wished I could hold him all night long.  We lived on the same floor in our college dorm.  Back then there were few guys that made my heart go pitter-pat.  John did.  I was in lust with him for sure and was very sweet on him. 

    Back then guys wore short gym shorts.  His were tomato soup red and made his ass look so pretty, not that I knew what to do about it.  I became aware that guys penetrated each other, yes, but I had little awareness of it, that it would feel good.  I was very closeted and afraid of being gay, so in my mind I wasn't mindful of being sexual.  In a sense I was in denial, yet my eyes knew what I liked, what filled my heart with lust.  

    One night we were sitting on the couch in his room, watching TV.  He reclined to snooze, his head pointed away from me.  We might have smoked some weed.

    I drew John's feet across my lap.  I wanted John to stretch his legs out across me.

    I began stroking his calves and then his thighs.  John didn't react.  My desire overcame fear.  I slid my hand higher, inside his gym shorts, feeling his butt.  Was so exciting.  Eventually I reached around and brushed my hand against his jock.  In the dark I saw his head turn and look at me.

    I stopped.  Shortly after that I went back to my room.

    I was not good at processing so many cues from John.  College boys dish out so much teasing and BS.  But now I see how much John really wanted to be sexual with me and that he was sweet on me too.

    In retrospect, he must have had experience, probably with the same neighbor boy that visited campus once to drive John home.   He wanted to try with me.  

    We ended up in similar situations two more times.  But by the time I was coming out to myself, he had moved on to getting with girls.

    He still thinks about me.  I got an email from him not long ago.

      I'll always remember my John.

     

     

  5. I enjoyed him and so sorry to see the news.
    He was very well regarded at the other Forum.  But I'd only observed and interacted with him here.  Had he transitioned out of the Daddy forum?

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    I am aware of two people, both F to M transitioned,  where they identified their sexuality, who they are drawn to, had changed.  After transitioning, each liked men.  Before, they had each liked women.

    To me, sexuality is so interesting and mysterious.  

    In college there were several guys that showed interest in me but ended up family men, with wife and kids.  One could say they were curious.  But they were definitely drawn to me, my body.  

    As a boy I liked looking at naked pics in Playboy, large breasted women.  They excited me.  But by the time I was 14 I was becoming drawn to guys.  Perhaps as a boy if I'd seen beautiful, seductive pictures of men, that would have excited me.  I think so.

     

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