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Wow!  what a lot of talk, advice and confessions!  Best thread in a while!  of course it would be better if we throw in picture or two of our hot men.
I came out to family and close friends in my 30's but not at work until my fifties working in a professional university environment. I initially lost a few "friends" because you "lied" to us. but 6 months later they were friends again.  Mom was mad at me cause I told dad first (4 years earlier, he said don't tell mom)...
I don't present as gay, but if asked often say I'm Bi.  why.... because I have fucked a couple of girls and it was fine.  but honestly their bodies do not turn me on like the firm muscled abs of a man... and the musk of man (heaven!}.
But telling your friends you are Bi works for most of them.  somehow even homophobic  straights don't mind Bi men as much as gays.  Then you get to talk more about it... and issue fades away.  
WTfool this strategy might serve you in Pattaya.  your "friends" as many have said are there for the same reason as you....  to get laid.
Or adding the 800B for a room to male conquests will not break the bank.
Make some Gay friends!.  they are here talking to you now!
 

thank you , you have  a good heart ! 
Way OP asked question made it somewhat easy to answer

not sure what it is supposed to mean 'bit trashy" but whatever it is,  nothing to be apprehensive about. Boys are as  nice as BKK ones, prices of drinks, off fees , massages and expected tips are lower indeed.
If you are looking for twinks you will find galore of them in Jomtien Complex as well as Winners and whatever was left from Sunee Plaza glory. Nice Boys staff may be a bit on rough side but in positive sense of it - less inhibited I'd say.
For more meatier guys head to Boyztown, BBB and Dreamboys will be your destination there.
If you bored during day, trip to Koh Larn ( with boy or three in tow), Sanctuary of Truth and Noong Noch (spelling? ) Tropical Gardens and Big Buddha on top of the hill at the center are you daytime distractions.
Central Festival and Terminal 21 are malls to visit if you re shopper. Lots of restaurants so you won't starve, if you like street food , you will find plenty of it between Wat Chai and Tukcom.
Baht bus is 10 baht and motorsai between Jomtien and the center will be 60-100 depending on driver , time of day, your negotiating skills, how you dressed  and phase of moon.
If you arrive by Airport bus ( recommended), terminal is walking distance of 6 minutes 37 seconds from Jomtien Complex, if by bus from Ekkamai bus station to North Pattaya Bus Station , it will be 50--100 by songtawew (baht bus) or motorsai  to Boyztown, unless you stop songtaew on the main street, that it will be 2 times 10 baht as you must change at Delphin roundabout.
As for hotels, in Boytzown Classroom (more quiet) , just above ABomb boy bar or in Boyztown proper Copa or Ambiance are your choices, all gust friendly like 127.43% of Pattaya hotels. In Jomtien complex Zing Resort or The Venue are cheaper choices, Agate , East Suites and Poseidon are more for affluent types like you.

Wow!  what a lot of talk, advice and confessions!  Best thread in a while!  of course it would be better if we throw in picture or two of our hot men.
I came out to family and close friends in my 30's but not at work until my fifties working in a professional university environment. I initially lost a few "friends" because you "lied" to us. but 6 months later they were friends again.  Mom was mad at me cause I told dad first (4 years earlier, he said don't tell mom)...
I don't present as gay, but if asked often say I'm Bi.  why.... because I have fucked a couple of girls and it was fine.  but honestly their bodies do not turn me on like the firm muscled abs of a man... and the musk of man (heaven!}.
But telling your friends you are Bi works for most of them.  somehow even homophobic  straights don't mind Bi men as much as gays.  Then you get to talk more about it... and issue fades away.  
WTfool this strategy might serve you in Pattaya.  your "friends" as many have said are there for the same reason as you....  to get laid.
Or adding the 800B for a room to male conquests will not break the bank.
Make some Gay friends!.  they are here talking to you now!
 

Perhaps even worse is when a boy you care about just disappears and you have no idea what happened to him, even after many years have passed. Around 16 years ago I would occasionally go to the up-market Italian restaurant Zanotti on Saladaeng. Sometimes a client would take me. At others I would go with friends. Expensive at evening time, it had a very good set lunch at a very reasonable price. There was one waiter who I found especially attractive. Mid-20s, he came from a town in Isaan. His English was good and his smile virtually to die for. I usually chatted with him. Over time we became friends although he always said he was not gay.
As his room was not far from my condo, I invited him round for drinks after work one evening. I was surprised that he came. Soon he would come quite frequently, almost always sleeping overnight on the sofa. For his birthday, I got a cake from the Mandarin Oriental shop and he was so happy. He said he'd never had a birthday cake before! Only on 2 or 3 occasions would he knock on my door and ask to sleep with me. Although i was not in love with him, I loved his company. He could be wonderfully funny and we spent many evenings on the sofa just chatting and laughing. I considered him a lovely close friend.
After about a year, he and several other staff left Zanotti following a disagreement with the manager. He told me that of the 10% service charge, the manager kept 8.5% leaving the staff to share just 1.5%. Eventually he told me that he wanted to work overseas. The Mango Tree restaurant (near Tawan Bar) had a namesake in Dubai. He had been offered a job there. I checked the contract with which I told him there were several problems. He tried to bring them up with the manager here but was told it was take it or leave it. So he signed and flew off to Dubai. In several early emails he told me how much he was enjoying the work and being in Dubai. Soon, though, things began to turn sour and he wanted to break his contract and just leave. He did have his passport but no air ticket which he was saving up for. I told him just to get the ticket and I would pay him the balance.
Back in Bangkok, he did a couple of part-time restaurant jobs before he was offered a post on one of the Royal Viking Line Cruise ships. Hugely excited, off he went to somewhere in the Baltic. When in ports he would email me saying he loved the job, despite the hard work. Eventually he had some leave coming up. He wrote and asked if he could stay with me in Bangkok. Of course I agreed. Having given me his dates, he said he'd contact me when he got back to Thailand. Sure enough, he mailed me to say he had arrived but would first go to see his family. He'd come to Bangkok after 6 days. That was the last I heard from him!
I mailed him several times. They were unanswered. I left sms messages on his phone which was still working. No reply. I called and just got the ring tone. After a couple of months I wrote that I did not care what had happened to him - maybe he'd married, maybe found a long-term boyfriend, maybe been in a bad accident - all I wanted to know was that he was OK and perhaps see him if he came to Bangkok. If he needed help, I was here. Again no reply. 
I hope he is somewhere and happily settled down with the good job he deserves and a love life that he enjoys. If I could just get one mail saying that, I'd be really happy for him. It would also set my mind at ease. My fear is that something happened when he was back with his family and he died. It's the not knowing that occasionally, even now, gnaws at me.

Great post ! Live life to the fullest now .
With all the health problems you had you need to be a realist I guess and know you might not have as long as you wish, and do everything you want to now💜👍

Surely a key ingredient in enjoying retirement is to be at peace with oneself. However we decide to live out our remaining years, whether short or long, the absence of worry is liberating. Some guys want to be active in pursuing a gay lifestyle and enjoying lfe to the full. Others are unable to do so for one reason or another. I am a firm believer that we all create our own realities. For those who are less than happy, I'd ask you to take time to work out why you feel that way. What specifically creates that unhappiness? What in your view would make you happier (let's leave money out of the discussion as there is often little we can do about that late in life)?
That decided, I believe you have no choice. You have to set those demons, fears, worries aside. See a psychiatrist if you think that might help. I fully realise that changing views that have been welded into your brain for decades is far from easy. But the choice is simple. Either continue with those demons etc. and perhaps keep regretting that you did not do this or do that. Or make a conscious decision that now you are in the latter part of your life, this life is for enjoyment and fulfilment. Your enjoyment and fulfilment. You have to make the decisions. They may seem hard, but you'll be surprised how easy they really are once you have made up your mind. Just do it!

When you come to thailand in winter.  hook up with some of the more social guys on the board.  Make some new friends!  there are plenty of guys here that enjoy good sex with young smooth thai men.
there used to be gay dinner social club in Pattaya that met to eat (at a german retaurant) then wander down the soi to sunnee and hit Eros (?) to fondle dancers then moved on to.....  It was fun and an eye opener for me to enjoy such things with some other like minded men.
Or maybe a lady boy for your straight men "friends" to admire you?  🤣

This topic greatly interests me. WBU?  My goal is to grow old disgracefully as well.  I want to fuck and/or be fucked by as many men as I can find and buy.  And perhaps in that journey find one (or two) that I might trust to “care” for me when I become infirm (although I would most like to die suddenly in the middle of an orgasm).  When I can’t do it anymore, I can still watch.
My dilemma is how and where to do this. 
I have been to Thailand, loved it, want to go again (but hate the flights).  Did 35 days in Medellin/Bogota Colombia this spring and was utterly disgraceful.  Want to check out Laos, Cambodia, Thailand, Myanmar, Brazil and the Philippines.  Looking for a second home…..
I still have a husband; he has no interest in men or travel.  I’m recently retired, banging around in the house.  He unhappy when I’m here and unhappy when I go.
My plan was to move to my condo in FLA, sell the house in PA, and we explore the world.  Easy to close the door in the condo and go.  Now he does not want to move to FLA.
SO, I go on vacations on my own as “I’m not going to sit here and wait to die.”  I even went back to work oversea for a year to get out of the house (2020 UAE – covid holiday).
My countdown clock is not good.  I had 7 bypasses at 47 and 5 more stents at 48.  I’m already beating the life expectance odds for patients like me. (Doctor says I’m doing good!)  But who knows when the ticker will stop.  Go to the gym 5 days a week, walk or treadmill an hour most days, and weights during the week.  The dick does not work nearly as good as before… too much porn and meds.  So learning to enjoy bottoming too.
I don’t want to be in PA for the winter.  So southeast Asia is on the flight plan.  My goal is December thru April.  So that means flying in and out of Thailand to beat the visa issues.  Like to experience Songkran… although I read most of you locals hate it.  Maybe hit Colombia again on the way back home.
Hoping there is some board members who might want to meet and exchange notes over beer or coke in Jomtien.
Is anyone using the facebook groups to find men?  there are many gay men dating groups with some rent boys... and other looking for partners or sugar daddys...

Just discovered this thread.  too much to read, but have been watching thai filipino Taiwanese BL for some time.
Got stuck on KinnPorche.  love porsche but didn't like them turning the character from kung fu god in the first episode to whiny bottom. But some good flesh scenes.
Currently watching KinnPorsche, Love Mechanics and Check out
What is the best flesh scene you guys have seen?  this is my favorite, I want to mount rambo likethis as well.
 
Favorite actor Ohm Pawat Chittsawangdee.  loved him in Bad Buddies and with Singto in he's coming to me
 

and the equally bad thing when they get HIV and give up.  their family disowns them, they don't get treatment and die....

This topic greatly interests me. WBU?  My goal is to grow old disgracefully as well.  I want to fuck and/or be fucked by as many men as I can find and buy.  And perhaps in that journey find one (or two) that I might trust to “care” for me when I become infirm (although I would most like to die suddenly in the middle of an orgasm).  When I can’t do it anymore, I can still watch.
My dilemma is how and where to do this. 
I have been to Thailand, loved it, want to go again (but hate the flights).  Did 35 days in Medellin/Bogota Colombia this spring and was utterly disgraceful.  Want to check out Laos, Cambodia, Thailand, Myanmar, Brazil and the Philippines.  Looking for a second home…..
I still have a husband; he has no interest in men or travel.  I’m recently retired, banging around in the house.  He unhappy when I’m here and unhappy when I go.
My plan was to move to my condo in FLA, sell the house in PA, and we explore the world.  Easy to close the door in the condo and go.  Now he does not want to move to FLA.
SO, I go on vacations on my own as “I’m not going to sit here and wait to die.”  I even went back to work oversea for a year to get out of the house (2020 UAE – covid holiday).
My countdown clock is not good.  I had 7 bypasses at 47 and 5 more stents at 48.  I’m already beating the life expectance odds for patients like me. (Doctor says I’m doing good!)  But who knows when the ticker will stop.  Go to the gym 5 days a week, walk or treadmill an hour most days, and weights during the week.  The dick does not work nearly as good as before… too much porn and meds.  So learning to enjoy bottoming too.
I don’t want to be in PA for the winter.  So southeast Asia is on the flight plan.  My goal is December thru April.  So that means flying in and out of Thailand to beat the visa issues.  Like to experience Songkran… although I read most of you locals hate it.  Maybe hit Colombia again on the way back home.
Hoping there is some board members who might want to meet and exchange notes over beer or coke in Jomtien.
Is anyone using the facebook groups to find men?  there are many gay men dating groups with some rent boys... and other looking for partners or sugar daddys...

Just discovered this thread.  too much to read, but have been watching thai filipino Taiwanese BL for some time.
Got stuck on KinnPorche.  love porsche but didn't like them turning the character from kung fu god in the first episode to whiny bottom. But some good flesh scenes.
Currently watching KinnPorsche, Love Mechanics and Check out
What is the best flesh scene you guys have seen?  this is my favorite, I want to mount rambo likethis as well.
 
Favorite actor Ohm Pawat Chittsawangdee.  loved him in Bad Buddies and with Singto in he's coming to me
 

During my trip to BKK in June/July, I went to a host bar called Changsha Chill. I threw a private party with a bunch of guys there.
The owner was nice enough to have one of the guys pick me up from my hotel. Granted he was late, but he was handsome and charming, so I didn't let it bother me too much.
At the party, he was having a good time as we all were, though some of the guys felt a bit awkward being in their underwear, including the driver guy. Thankfully alcohol made everyone a lot more comfortable as the night went on.
The next day, I reached out to the guy who picked me up and asked if he would be up for meeting at my hotel. I had actually read about him in this forum and wanted to experience what I read for myself.
When he arrived, the best way I could describe him was tweaked out, as if he had been using drugs. I'm not around people who use drugs much, so I couldn't tell for sure, but I knew something wasn't right with the guy. It could also have just been intense nervous energy. Unfortunately the encounter didn't go great, but he was kind the whole time and I honestly just liked his company as he had lived in Australia and had a high level of English. I never talked to him after the encounter.
Fast forward to just a few minutes ago, and I found out on the bar's Twitter that he has passed away. I don't know why I feel so sad about it because I know he wasn't a good friend of mine or anything, but I thought I could at least share here in case anyone has ever experienced something like this. I don't really have anyone IRL that I could talk to about this.
I wish I would have given him a big hug when he left my hotel that day or that we had just talked more. 
 

New upcoming series Bad Buddy with the duper sexy actor Ohm
 

Thailand is the number one in the world on the quantity and quality of BL series I can add more recommendations :
Love by Chance
Love Sick 
Make it right
The effect
Gay OK Bangkok
The effect
Until we meet Again
Tharntype
My Dream
Sotus
 
 
 

Part 10: Last evening in Bangkok (for now...) 
Yesterday was my last evening in Bangkok. I will go travels around Thailand now for a few week (up north, Pattaya, Phuket...) and will be back on Bangkok on September 23 for 5 more night before I fly home.

The evening didn't start well... It was raining hard, the roads flooded. And the hourly forecast didn't look good either.
But after about 1hr the rain stopped and it was "safe" to head out to the bars. I had some unfinished business to take care of before leaving Bangkok tomorrow...
First of all there is the guy on Grindr who is for days already stalking me. He works in Freshboys. Don't wanna just ignore or block him because I want to be able to go to Freshboys again without "losing face". He looks nice and sweet, not sure if he will be my type in real life. So didn't want to invite him to my room without seeing him in the bar first. But he kept trying. Even on his day off. 

Decided to go for a drink in Freshboys first and buying the boy a drink too. So at least I've shown him my good heart. Lol
Gave him besides a drink an extra 100 baht bill and told him I had to leave to Tawan because I needed to show my friend that place. Which was actually true as I met up with another solo traveler and we agreed to go to Freshboys en Tawan together that night.
Because of the rain, the steps at Freshboys was wet and slippery. The guy I was with slipped and felt down, taking me with him in his fall as I was walking in front of him. I had a soft landing, on top of him. He took a harder hit on the concrete stairs. But was also fine. Thank god. He was even laughing saying that cracked his back without having to pay for a massage... But let this be a warning whenever around in rain: stairs can be slippery! 
We arrived at Tawan around 11pm. The show didn't start yet. When we looked around we found out why: we were the only customers... All the rest (around 20 boys again, same like the day before) were Tawan staff. We had our drinks, talked to the (I suppose) manager and I off course invited 6pack guy (see report part 8 in this post about one day earlier in Tawan) to come and sit with me.
"I take care of you tonight?" he asked. Oh yes you can! Understandable, with no other customers in the bar, Tawan decided not to have a show that night. I was entertained by 6pack guy who took my hands and placed them all over his muscles body so I could feel everything... He was placing his own hand on my shorts while feeling what was hidden inside... This is even better than the show. Lol

No show this night, only guys doing some posing on stage like in this picture from Tawan twitter account. 
In the meantime I had some conversation with the guy I was with. He decided to move on to soi 4 to see if, despite the heavy rain earlier, things were happening there. And I took 6pack guy back to Tarntawan.
2500 for the boy, 500 for the bar. More expensive than the average off fee in the boybars. But I wanted to have a Tawan expierence... And it turned out better than expected.
One day earlier when I also was in Tawan, 6pack guy already told me "everything" is possible, except that he doesn't want to get fucked. He spoke good English so I had no reason to think things went lost in translation. Possibilities from his side and expectations from mine were clear. He had to leave his id card at reception of the hotel.
In my room the muscle worshipping that started in the bar continued. And as promised he kissed, sucked my dick... And even more: he licked my balls and ass. Was very nice to feel his tongue go there... 
After this all came to a (my) climax, 6pack guy gave me a short mini massage. I felt his strong hands over my body and feet. 
After 6pack guy left, hotel reception called me to check everything was oke before they gave his id card back.
To be honest, I didn't expect much from a Tawan guy. I was thinking maximum you could get was touching his muscles and sucking HIS cock. The expierence I had with 6pack guy was so much better than that...!
Let's see what adventures the rest of Thailand will have for me in the next weeks... 

This topic greatly interests me. WBU?  My goal is to grow old disgracefully as well.  I want to fuck and/or be fucked by as many men as I can find and buy.  And perhaps in that journey find one (or two) that I might trust to “care” for me when I become infirm (although I would most like to die suddenly in the middle of an orgasm).  When I can’t do it anymore, I can still watch.
My dilemma is how and where to do this. 
I have been to Thailand, loved it, want to go again (but hate the flights).  Did 35 days in Medellin/Bogota Colombia this spring and was utterly disgraceful.  Want to check out Laos, Cambodia, Thailand, Myanmar, Brazil and the Philippines.  Looking for a second home…..
I still have a husband; he has no interest in men or travel.  I’m recently retired, banging around in the house.  He unhappy when I’m here and unhappy when I go.
My plan was to move to my condo in FLA, sell the house in PA, and we explore the world.  Easy to close the door in the condo and go.  Now he does not want to move to FLA.
SO, I go on vacations on my own as “I’m not going to sit here and wait to die.”  I even went back to work oversea for a year to get out of the house (2020 UAE – covid holiday).
My countdown clock is not good.  I had 7 bypasses at 47 and 5 more stents at 48.  I’m already beating the life expectance odds for patients like me. (Doctor says I’m doing good!)  But who knows when the ticker will stop.  Go to the gym 5 days a week, walk or treadmill an hour most days, and weights during the week.  The dick does not work nearly as good as before… too much porn and meds.  So learning to enjoy bottoming too.
I don’t want to be in PA for the winter.  So southeast Asia is on the flight plan.  My goal is December thru April.  So that means flying in and out of Thailand to beat the visa issues.  Like to experience Songkran… although I read most of you locals hate it.  Maybe hit Colombia again on the way back home.
Hoping there is some board members who might want to meet and exchange notes over beer or coke in Jomtien.
Is anyone using the facebook groups to find men?  there are many gay men dating groups with some rent boys... and other looking for partners or sugar daddys...

Part 5: Re-discovering Bangkok's touristic hotspots (... Because Bangkok has much more to offer than boys alone, right?) 
As I’ve written earlier, I was a yearly visitor of Bangkok since 2012. Off course I’ve been to all the famous tourist places over the years. Grand Palace, What Po… But as I’ve heard that tourist numbers still are so much lower than before covid9, I figured out it might be nice to re-visit some of these places again but now without it being too crowded.

No crowds at Grand Palace today
I’ve read that the 11 million Chinese travelers that arrived in airports in Thailand in 2019 made up more than 25 per cent of the Thai tourist industry for that year (there was a total of 39 million visitors in 2019).
For Thailand I wish soon much more tourists will find their way to the Kingdom again. But it is actually nice for me to now take advantage of the lack of tourists in places that were over-crowded before covid19. With the Chinese still almost not traveling to Thailand yet, I was looking forward re-exploring Bangkok without the big Chinese tourist groups around. 
I took the advice from this forum to download the Bolt taxi app. As Bolt should be cheaper than Grab. For my trip from Le Méridien hotel in Silom to Gran Palace I looked up the prices:
Bolt: 87 baht, 17 minutes waiting time
Grab: 177 baht, 8 minutes waiting time 
So I thinks it's all about how much you want to pay and if you're in a hurry or are oke with a little longer wait... 🚕

Not busy at all in Wat Pho today
It was indeed not as busy at Grand Palace and Wat Pho as I remember from my previous visits. Was nice after all these years to see those places again. And because not so many people around, beautiful opportunities to make some great pictures. I recommend to do the same if you're lucky to get to Bangkok somewhere in the next months. We can't be chasing boys all day and all night, can we...? Lol
To conclude this posting; when I went to the atm it was asking me like always if I wanted to wish to proceed with the transaction with the conversion rate the machine was offering. I always wondered what was best to do. I always declined so my bank would just use the daily exchange rate. But some friends told me I better use the conversion option on the atm. 

Well... Happy I never listened to them. As conversion via atm would have cost met just over 300 euro. 💸 I just checked my digital account and my bank only charged me 286 euro... Good to know. 

Well that's one thing also as I get older and as we all get older .....we should pay no attention to what others think, hard to do though 🤣
But if most of us have less than 20 years left give or take,should we stop worrying about what others think?
I recall GB had a quote once about this,can't recall it now though ,(must be the dementia setting in😂) 
Should we as older gay men be able to hold hands with our (mostly ) younger boyfriends in the street , should we be able to travel together in cruises without being concerned about what others think ?
Yes as getting older I'm becoming less concerned what others think and that maybe a positive change 
Even I'm trying not to judge younger people I see , I live in a predominantly gay area so every weekend night we gets hordes of young gay people in my area including many Asians who like to let their hair down screaming laughing out loud etc 
I was walking with a older gay friend last Friday night coming back from a restaurant and he started judging them, "look at these young people being so loud " he said 
"Oh shut the Fuck up ! I retorted back , " I remember you were much wilder in the 1980's getting high in the gay nightclub toilets to the Boy George & Trio music !
That soon shut him up 🤣

You would have to know the exact time of your death to do a countdown.
I am not quite "senior" yet. My dad died at 81. My mom is still kicking at 83. Neither of them in great shape in their latter years though. So I expect that as long as I don't get hit by a bus I should make it well into my 80s or 90s. My current plan is to retire at 60. According to my financial planner's calculations my money should well outlast me. So that's all good news.
My current plan is to devote myself to getting into as good of a physical condition as I can in retirement when I will have plenty of free time. I am glad that I've been traveling quite a lot over the past 30 years. Doing it while I was young enough to really enjoy it was a good thing. But it's a big world out there so I expect to keep traveling as long as it's possible. 
Of course who knows what the state of the world is going to be over the next 40 years. So I guess enjoying things while you still can is wise.
There's a YouTube channel I watch from time to time called notime2bsad. The creator is an American guy who documents his daily life with his Thai wife, family and friends. It's a nice slice of life and it's always enjoyable to see Thailand. They live in Isaan but travel around a lot. He retired relatively young. As a military veteran I presume he gets a pretty good pension which I am sure helps. His whole ethos is to not worry about the things you can't control and enjoy your life. I don't agree with him on some things (I believe he's fairly conservative) but his overall philosophy is a good one. Personally I find it impossible to ignore all of the things happening in the world and feel like burying your head in the sand might be good for you on a personal level, but it's not great for the world at large. 
But I agree that a positive attitude is essential. Nobody wants to be a nasty old curmudgeon. 

For those of you over 60 as a gay man how is your lifestyle now?
Obviously your life goals change as you get older over 75 etc when your lifespan becomes around 5-7 years left ?
Are you living life to the fullest ,travel,sex etc 
I ask this because I realised as we get older there is a countdown to life 
Some of us may prefer to be  retired ,others to work full or part time .
Others to be unfit ,others to go to the gym
But the question is ,are you wasting your next years left ?
I don't know how to define the term wasting your life because my late mother preferred to stay home and read books and watch inspector Frost reruns whilst my father done gardening everyday so everyone is different 
To me I'm planning the countdown to death ,some days I don't have the motivation even for sex though .
But I'm not one now  to waste time working continually for money my goal this year starting from October 1st to December 31  is to suck as many cocks , and be fucked .
Im changing my attitude goal , and starting to think positive instead of negative, in the last few days walking to the shopping areas in my area I noticed African guys looking at me whilst walking past  , unfortunately I didn't stop and talk to them kept walking,my ass was aching afterwards dreaming of the African dick I could of had ,
I told a friend later in the cafe about both days I had African guys looking at me and how my butt was aching thinking about them and my regret and not stopping to talk to them, unfortunately he is a old negative man who told me he didnt think they were looking for sex but talked negative ,I will avoid talking subjects like that with him in future
Secondary I'm not going to allow "drama" into my life ,we all won't be here in 30 years time ,stop letting little things concern you ,get out there and enjoy what you have left !
I plan to grow old disgracefully wbu ?
 
 

Pretty much sums it up....

Fox is fake news, MSNBC is consider the far left, CNN is left of center, especially in the opinion shows.  But the new direction from the new owner is to treat the republicans as honest people with a different viewpoint; instead of a pack of well documented power seeking lying hypocrites.
"there are very fine people on both sides"
with mainstream media owned by the rich oligarchs manipulating the news, USA is not a democracy, it is a plutocracy .

Fox is fake news, MSNBC is consider the far left, CNN is left of center, especially in the opinion shows.  But the new direction from the new owner is to treat the republicans as honest people with a different viewpoint; instead of a pack of well documented power seeking lying hypocrites.
"there are very fine people on both sides"
with mainstream media owned by the rich oligarchs manipulating the news, USA is not a democracy, it is a plutocracy .